Sensitize

Sensitize me morning girl
as I wake underneath the dew tipped cascade
let me run my fingers through your hair
and bring you close so I can kiss you everywhere.

I want my lips to know your skin
to brave the fears I had within
and give myself inhuman strength
to stop- mid air
and wander your length-

and take you close
so close to me
our bodies become just one
to be
to kiss
to wander free
to deny
our self
our thoughts and the "me"
now we wander
free
as we-

and I can't wait just to be
to know you like I know me-
and for once not to have it all in one place
but to be one person with one face.

So sensitize me morning girl
lie in my arms after the storm
your finger moving around, doing no harm
but letting me see what I cannot adorn-
your face
your body
warm against me
your sighs
your soft
tranquility
your gentle breathing
eyes closed
and free
to love
to lust
to do whatever you please-

and in it all,
to freely love "we"

I'm sensitized my love
I know who I am
I feel you each time I can.

I love you the way
I know how to love
and it's you each time
as I thank somethin' higher
for love.

Smoke Away

And so the ballad begins, in late and dreary times
And all that was and had been, was in the mind.
He thought of her disrobed and so she promised just the same
But what of conscious living could have taught him such a thing?

I know the he is me so just before you psychoanalyze
Just let me tell you of my story and if you don’t take it apart, sympathize.

All my life I’ve dreamed of one who’s perfect in every way,
Beautiful eyes, kissable lips and hips, not big but enough to sway.
This came to me but once and she deserted me as fast she could
When I thought I built a love on steel, it turned out to be driftwood.

Others I’ve had and beautiful to, in every kind of way
Ones who’ve loved and ones who thought and all were focused on foreplay.
I’m tired of the shrew and I have no need for the mole,
If you aren’t going to follow through, you might as well hide in a hole.

It’s blasphemy, the life I’ve lived because I'm definitely an idolater
But women are my idols and it’s hard not to be a follower.
My god it seems each time I’m up, I so quickly come crashing down
And what man cares for another enough to hear when I hit the ground.

Impetuous, blind, lame and dumb
Preposterous, gregarious, self-absorbed, but fun-
Contemptuous, rude, hateful or loathing
It began just getting a beauty out of her clothing.

Now there’s an art and now I must restrict myself
Instead of embracing heaven I’ve seemed to have gone to hell
And it’s not as if I wasn’t expecting getting here
I’ve done my best to be bad and I’ve done it all year

I’ve not crossed my t’s and fuck dotting my I’s
And I’m punished with a girl who hates me and has mammoth thighs
My friends are all posers, my parents are lame
And all this displaced hatred, leaves me with only my self to blame.

I will go crazy and I will lose my mind,
Acting without knowing, is kind of like being blind.

So to end my story well, there really is no point,
For all of you who are happy, go to hell and let me smoke my joint.

Girl

Formed from the fringe
Of heavenly delight-
True joy in the simplicity
She also fights my fight.

In fear I’ll, never again,
Sleep at night-
I don’t think of you
I just close my eyes tight

Just the thought of you
Makes me unwilling to sleep-
I fear I’ll forget you
In my dreams far and deep.

But you are forever now
So I sigh and kill the light
Together in our forever
Everything will be alright.

Television...

Once upon a time there was a long long rhyme in a castle so far far away. Upon a drifting wood, a climber, there, stood and on his gallant steed he lay aghast. He'd climbed all day he climbed by night and fought the red devil upon his back side, for even right now he lay bleeding sound and through his tortured eyes he saw the lights of Camelot and the lights of sod. Poor man, lay in the sand and watched the devil cry. He was on his way to Georgia and was far from northern lies. The gorge was deep the creek Ran sweet, sweet with the sugary taste of blood. The soldier stood and off the hoarse fell into the river deep. God's blessed castle, the castle of Camelot lay still, far, in the distance. There the raven once was blessed, was now sinking in eternal dress, the metal of silver his woven coil over his life saving suit. He'd still be alive if the fool had not tried to protect himself from craven fight, that light! It came from the edges of the world as it grows even smaller. The sandy man dressed in loins leaves as a world is shut down and the shrill cry is muffled so as not to even have time to clutter the evergreen trees. So with the violent killing spree, that lifts the heart and blacks out even evergreen trees, with the violent coup de etat that makes the other world cease to be, now the end has come and off goes the TV.

Self Conviction

I know I love you-
Why should I have to prove this to myself?
But you don’t love me because you don’t trust me-
Or must I admit, there’s no love at all?

If love could only infect you like it did me
I’d bear the brunt of a rhinoceros
Would it were to infect you with my love for thee.

I am unfit for such a proclamation
My track record with woman is shady at best
I fear that you won’t put our love to the test
Or have you already and you’re just holding out?

My heart cannot bear it.
Don’t you know you’re destroying me?
I wish you every joy in the world though,
Because I love you.

I can only miss you
And hope that some day you
Will love me too.

If fire could burn as hot
as the one in my soul when I’m with you
we could heat a city.

Lying next to you
Loving the feeling of warmth and relief
While I’m with you
And your presence tells my mind:
My god she’s finally here.

Fog

Like Romeo and Juliet
And she is the young Capulet.
My road is to become a star
But to do it, I must leave her and travel far.

Friends say sex is all you should ask
Hold back and simply carry the task.
My mind trusts no one and fears the worst
And I, in devastation, feel the thirst.

What if she comes with baggage I don’t know?
What if some things don’t fit or go?
What if she’s dangerous mysteriously-
But delusions and fear aren’t that important to me.

I want her but am blind to the situation
I run on advice, stipulations and regulations
But what if she loved me and wanted to stay
The feeling I felt was instant but I want to know the way.

Regrowing Confidence

I’m handsome, talented, mysterious, young,
Intelligent, sensual, capable and fun.
I’m never too harsh and mean people suck
I’m one in a million baby,
I am Mr. Luck

Cancer of The Brain

Rising like anger
Burning bright like the sun
And when you’re feeling your best-
You’re taken out back and hung.

What in me let’s me know too quick
What it is I want?
Foraging forever and knowing the one.

I beg for cosmic mercy
Torn by what I feel inside
I was born this needy demon
Whoever told you there was a god, lied.

I beg for death
And picture it in my mind
So viscerally vivid
Things that some pass by.

I picture car wrecks I saw in the past
And apply them to the streets
Reliving their last
In one trillion frames at once.

It’s part of all artists
At times, to go insane
I live life the same as anyone, struggling,
Maybe I’ve got cancer of the brain.

Or maybe I can’t release
The tortured moments of my life
I have been fighting forever,
For what I know to be right.

So to conclude: there is no point
To living each day the same
Don’t love or think of love
Or you’ll get cancer of the brain.

Marriage Wishes

So you’re getting married
Creating a new life and home
Live together happily
Because everyone dies alone.

INSOMNIA

There are things out to get me.
From where, I do not know
and why?

I can’t imagine but they are there;
I can hear the noises they make.

Behind our refrigerator
there is a noise that sounds just like
a bushman making click click noises
over and over
and in different tones and speeds.

There are
screams
coming from outside and
the noise of the street lamps is deafening.

I’m tired and I’m not,
I’m going in and out
signing off...

Divine Intervention

Your eyes like crystals
Your hair like flames
All of a sudden I
Knew a magical name.

And when I hear it
My heart pounds like a stud
And when you’re around
I’d ignore everyone.

Because I am blind
When I’m with you
I remember a love
I thought I’d lost in my youth

I am sad that I’m leaving
I’m forced to go away
But it is now because of you
That I want to stay.

You make my heart happy
You help me to breath better
You are everything I’ve ever wanted
Down to the last letter.

It’s a shame that I met you
So late in the game
I’ve never met somebody
Who was so nearly much the same.

I think I might love you but I need to know more
It’s going to hurt tonight, when you walk out my door.

The Quintessential Points of Boredom

Damn the lilies, damn the fields and the fowl.
Damn every living creature including those who hide like barn owls.
Fuck this damn computer,
I don’t even know why I’m writing
Fuck me, fuck you, fuck everybody
Goodnight.

Dear Bunny

I love you bunny,
I hate this job
The people here act macabre.

I’ve ventured too far
Into the world of the mundane
Five minutes without you
Drives me insane.

I speak when I should listen:
Was born to die
I want to be with you
So I can be revived.

To be with you is
To feel alive
Even though we are mortal
And we all slowly die.

Though we all are mortal and over ages we will die
I am thankful for every hour of the day
We call our time.

Rasta Solution

The world is so uncomfortable sober
So I and I just need to toke to make
We closer to the power that is the peace of mind
Until the wars is over.