Linda

Down the alley, a tabby cat
Stood painted in her tuxedo black
And purred for me to come and see
her eyes speaking peaceful tranquility.

She warmed the souls of mortal men
till down the alley they'd look back when
They’d see a tabby dressed in tuxedo black-
Eyes fluorescent gleaming back-

Night shadows absorbing her plight
Willing man and beast to fight for what’s right
And live for kitties, to at least fight the good fight
As she walks comfortably set into the night.

I’ve seen the streets and also the world
And know the spikes and pains of life
But never till now have I known
Who so loved the world as our kitty-girl?

Lubov Anguelova

Love, my angel. There is none like you-
Sweet symphonies played all night long,
the night I held onto you.

Lubov, angel of my hearts only desire-
I stink of love for you,
as if my soul was on fire.

Love of all loves whom I cherish with my life-
I can taste you on my lips,
Sharp as the cutting edge of a knife.

Lubov, on your soapbox with your crown and flowers-
I can see now,
You’re the woman of the hour-

And into the weeks and years that will pass-
I'm lucky for holding you last night,
a feeling that will always last.

Suicide Song (I read the bible today)

I read the bible today.
Jesus said to look the other way
And so I did and saw the day-
Falling as I hit the floor.

I swore every man was equal under god
But then I read John
Who told me I was not-
If my savior was not Jesus Christ.

I swore my sins to pass away
But they seem to fall on god’s deaf ears
Passover night I was washed away
By living with Passover wine.

I swore today to kill myself-
But I didn’t have the courage.
Knife in hand, the world, my foe-
But Jesus said to look the other way.

Lubov

From beginning to middle to end, my dear
love is like an island in the carabean.
Away from troubles and debt to pay
and clearly taken care of each day
but without the subtleties of stress.

When you're with me, forget all those,
you're lost at sea and barely clothed-
proverbially naked so all can see
who you are so they can love you
for who you be.

There's nothing to hide amongst our love
because I'm not looking for someone strong
I am the island, I'm not looking at all
my shores await you for your sleep.

So you might have a chance to weep
so you might have the chance to be free.
When you're with me, I'm your getaway
and I judge nothing 'cept you're made out of clay

like Adam and Eve, we have our garden today
and nothing can go wrong unless you might say
"I have to..."

When you're around me you have nothing to give
the only thing I ask is that you live.

My Love Lubov

The breeze flows in upon the night
I see you in sleep as blessed with sight
I hold you and dream of our Zanzibar home
With you, I'd never be alone

As long as I wake to your passion brown eyes
Even with crooks should I sympathize
for nothing so beautiful is like your hair
making my stomach warm and warming everywhere

your smile is that of one thousand graces
and I see your beauty in a million faces
as I can never escape your aura
I am stuck with you today and tommorow

I linger in duldrums until I'm without you
A face takes a poem but you have taken two
rest well my lovely for we meet in our dreams
but without you a dream is just what it seems

I wake to you tomorrow
until I see your face I'll cry with sorrow
but all you need give is an upward glance
and this poor soul becomes entranced

Yes just one gaze shall make my life
and all that was wrong shall soon become right.

To Worship

I wake to tepid morning air
expected to see you but you weren't there.
The fear of day glorifies the night
to see truly is to do it without sight.

Harken to the alter now
to give whole hearted from above the brow
the hearts of men are heaven sent
behold the irrelivant become relivant again

So I bequeath my sword to you
to plunder or build as you might do
but heed my warnings and my prayer
wherever you go, god is there.

My child, see right as right is true
in verdent pastures, it also seeks you
steadfast glory or stray from the flock
await thy wrath or bounty on your block

I wake to ardent nightmares too
but never should I wake, if not for you.

Drivel

Once in a world
Where time and space spin endlessly on strings
And the problems all come together like a swirling evil mass
A woman is created out of hardship and woe,
A car crash a year ago.
How long can one ail?
Pretty long I suppose and its problems on me bail.
Who's wrong if right's a joke
The people in power could on power, choke.
Parents are a dictatorship,
Stronger than any
A monarchy, a totalitarian style ass of themselves
Don't I wish I could vote?
Don't I wish there was a peoples choice award?
Well, that's called divorce
But that was their decision not mine.
A baby takes a lot of work but not that much,
Especially when you aren't working but rather just giving
She asks
They comply
They don't comply
She tells
She rules because it is her child,
Nothing else matters.
I'm not her kid.
My dad loves me
To a degree
And to please him she acts submissively.
A cynic in her ways
Nothing ever changes
I'm just a kid and so is she
Although my sister does gain respect from at least the baby.
I don't care perhaps I'll go
Legal restrictions are all that tie me to this household
But I don't care
Even my sentences are run-ons
My mind's just drivelling now and hate ensues it,
Makes it stupid
Makes me high
But not feel right
I've lost all warm things inside
I feel cold in this household and not just because it's cold.
She hates me, they both do
And I hate all three of them
I could seek sanctuary with my mom
But not until
I'm sure they hate me as much as I do them
The girls on this side are corrupt
Reigning like queens
We're susceptible to everything
She says she's sick and everything hurts
Well I'm dead and whatever she's got hurts me worse.
I'm sure now
Who cares
Who would
I'll just disappear
Like I should,
Like I should.