Life Lesson

Why should we not love completely
if it's in our nature to do so?
The pressure of being who your expected to be
causes the loss of hope.

Being a foreigner to yourself
only closes doors
and causes those with loving energy
to require more and more.

Like the waterfall that's damed completely
there eventually will be a spillway
life cannot always be wrapped so neatly
when your made the lover since birth.

Forget the lap of luxury and
forget the things you're told to want.
Want the things that represent you
want and strive for those, my son.

You could have the road less taken
and you could have your glory
but lost you'll be if you're not true to yourself
and believe me, son, that's a true story.

I've learned from experience that it will hurt if you
try and be someone for someone else
be yourself and you'll at least have you
and with that, this story is shelved.

Checking In

I felt like running but I ended up walking
I felt like screaming but I ended up talking
I felt like breathing but you took my breath away
and now I'm stuck to you even when you push me away.

Sometimes my dreams are better than life
when we both live in such unrelenting strife
I want to see day but now I only see night
"We're glowing like the metal on the edge of the knife."



If I sleep, I hope to wake to my dreams
life is much better in the movie scenes...

Stream of consciousness: 12:59 AM MST 5/11/11

oh that fire water there
ran merrily like a sea
deep into the heart of me
Drunk and stupid like a bee.

I drank to joyful Sally
who loved her handsome men
and fuck and fuck till she was sore
but then she'd do it again.

SING! That fire water there
ran merrily like a sea
deep into the heart of me
drunk and stupid like a bumble bee!!!!

Breaking it down

I make a killing off of fantasy/ never asked for clemency/ too much sugar coats make you blind to this cruel world of reality/ I've had many dreams that have ended in tears/ when all I wanted was to live connected for the rest of my years/ a psycho-analyst can syphon sick, sad stories from a brain/ but can they really solve the case: how to end all the pain? Why reconcile with the mild when you can win the game, insane? Like the lame Charlie Sheen brain/ a 16 year old boy needing to be tamed/ tell you what I'm gonna end this on a positive note: No matter who you are, you'll die: you're life's a f*cking joke.

StOC

I break fast rhythms into my soul
blackness affects me while I'm trimmed with gold
a silver lining is not enough I don't give a fuck if you offer protection or proverbial fluff this game is on
we racing wild like triads in the streets of Hong Kong
I'll Karaoke beatcha ass with a country music song.
Japan, underwater in the heat of a dying world
I see the heart is vicious inside of every girl.
I'm going freestyle bitches, silence like fucking Linus
till I got something to say and get lost in the fray-
So many messages and dreams that fly by in a flash
I want to act on every one while the world kicks my ass.
Internal struggle, rubble, and festering trouble
My vicious mind starts eating me and the frames of my eyes turn blind
in time I may get back my vision but it comes with a decision
and I feel I gotta rep for my internal step and no derisions
Feel lost and old so I thought I'd write Giacold
Sometimes it feels like meeting people is like being bought and sold.

My first night with you

What breath I've lost and can't retrieve!
And yet my heart beats, calm, relieved?
Into the windows of my mind's desire-
Be still fool's heart, while I think and retire.

a force to be reckoned with

Take me baby sugar pie-
I want your virus deep inside.
Have me now complete and whole-
my goal? Two minds within one soul.

One vessel for a future life-
no longer walking, tip-toed, the edge of the knife-
A vintage team as mortality goes-
and we meander, hand and hand, into an Autumn snow.