Waves

I am not one to brave the shore
And yet I cannot account for my stay
So many stable grounds to live on
And yet I love the ocean's sway.

The lack of grip upon my road
Ensures no traveler will sail the same
A wayfarer's lot was mine to gain
And I threw it away for a landlubber.

But there's something to be said for land
For the sea, she can't be tamed.
So I might ride horses over grassy fields
A fair trade for the return of Poseidon's reigns.

Forgive an old salt who's spent too much time away
I wake to rise and shout and quarrel
But where as once eternity was a slew of tomorrow's
I think I've taken to land and enjoy the today's.

When I was a young man, then perhaps
The violence of unpredictability and no shame
But I'm a man now, it's time to give up
The surf of youth and the uncertainty of waves.

Devices

I held her eyes within my soul
Who burned their way into my dreams
And fire erupted when she screamed
What glorious destruction comes in moments like these!

Destruction and construction in the alleyway
With passion and hatred, love and war
Collusion at the sliding door
Where once was reason I don't care anymore.

The night brings hard the iron rod
To beat the flowers to a pulp
The steam flies high like wings above
And leaves her with a dying kiss.

And she will hold the river back,
And ride a chariot of porcelain
While he like Grecians at the walls of Troy
Lays face down like a dying man.

They two would only have the night
To battle their flesh and bleed Jörmungand
And though the fight can't be abhorred
I find I may be feeling Thor
And yet come back for more.

Prayer for the Ostracized...

Dear God

I can't go in your house as your children will rebuke me-
I've fallen so far, my friends seem at a distance
My family's disappointed and my mind is all in shambles
What sanctuary comes to me as I wade through all these brambles
Not that I didn't go into the patch myself
But I have no riches now and I just lost my wealth.

What life is there for wicked men who live with Dibbyuks in them?
No life is there for me who has no sanctuary or dominion-
And so I wake tonight: no sleep or sanctum given.

Dear God I ask you only give me you to get me through this
Where is the man without sin?  You tell me lord, but for christ, who is?

Knowing my mistake

For a moment I see light through the incandescence of a cell phone screen in the dim light of my home
The warmth comes through the speakers like a water buoy flashing on a dark sea.
Time stands still and I sit in purgatory talking through the pain-
Like sitting on a warm subway grate in the freezing rain.

Then you have to go to get something to eat
And it's back to the blind experience in the LSC.
Crawling through a tunnel like one looking for their glasses in a midnight street.
The lamps have not been lit and there's so many demons looking for me.

Ironic I should face demons in this darkness on a Sunday-
The hell is not quite over yet, tomorrow welcomes Monday.
I will have my week to live in silent aberration
Like stepping up a step to find there's still an infinite number of revelations.

To my friend Jess

Every path in life will falter
And 'way leads into way'
Don't spend your time in endless answers
Just question all you say.

For people will find you wise, my friend,
Even if you're the silent idiot
Yet the trick is to be wise regardless
For you're the one who must suffer it-

Or enjoy it because life is a great adventure
Only unwise people love death.
If you can love each day you breath
Relish everything and everyone in it.

These are lessons I learned the hard way; so I thought I'd share with you-
Above all my friend, in everything you do: seek truth.

Bliss

A shadow falls o'er all the earth
And there are some who choose to take it-
But others find sunshine in UV lamps
And these are the ones who make it.

Success is survival and endurance of spirit
It's connecting and meeting someone new: feeling it!
He who broadcasts without listening is doomed
To never experience joy.

Not happiness because happiness is a cat by your side,
It's an exquisite dinner, a movie, a handshake, not stubbing your toe on the nail that you keep forgetting to fix in front of the bathroom so it's in exactly the place where you'd miss it.

Joy
Is altogether different.

Joy is faith. A feeling of je ne sais quoi. The terrifying ride that your son or daughter made you go on that you were dreading because you know you hate it but did it because you
Love them.

Joy is love
Which is hard to obtain.

Love and faith and joy are not free
They don't come from Facebook or an Amazon package.
There's no expressing joy through an emoji.
Joy can not be obtained through cat videos and vines
Vines are the parasites that grow all over the lost city called joy.

Your machete is your vigilance to stay real world connected
Your reward is

Bliss.

Sick

Kasan ga daijobou ka?
Tosan ga daijobou ka?
Tosan wa ii desu ne,
Kasan ga byouki desu.

Igaku wa hoshiidesu ka?
Sore wo hitsuyo to shimasu ka?
Daijoubou ka? Daijobou ka?
Kasan wa daijobou ja nai.

Tsuitachi ga owatta kasan ga
Daijobou, daijobou!
Tosan ga daijobou!
Subete no hitobito daijobou!