Lonely Road

Here I am again at the beginning of the road
Looking to my future with ambitions, unknown.
Drearily the wind blows and pushes me forward still
And yet it brings me nowhere but the bottom of the next hill.

And as I look around I see the hills and grasses green
I look towards the horizon and finally know what it means
I gain so much and yet I feel this emptiness inside
I feel I may have been born incomplete or maybe I died.

What proof do I have that I'm alive?
Except that there's others like me.
What exists that I have yet to grasp
Please end this eternity.

I walk towards danger and yet I have no fear
Because I don't know at all, what i'm doing here.

Lonely Togetherness

If I could build my love for you
I'd fill a gorge with snow.
So no one else would bother us
And no one would ever go
To an igloo that I'd build for us
To discuss the world in our world of snow
And no one else would have to know
That what we had was real
That we were connected through convictions we feel
And no one else would have to know
That we lived and thought freely,
In our focused world of snow.

Twisted fate

This is actually meant to be sang as a blues song in traditional form...


I saw her coming 'round the bend
She seemed like quite a sight
Her calves a strong as ox's
She'd do well in a fight

But she seemed so pretty mellow
I had to have a shot
I took it, went to speak to her,
And she said dude, piss off.

I can't understand why it was you
I can't understand why it was you
I walked into a trap and found my baby loved me too
But I can't understand why it was you.

She smiled just so perfectly
Her teeth a shiny row
Her fingernails were bitten down
And she killed me with those toes.

Our sex was fucking world war one
And still nobody knows
I can't understand why it was you.

I can't understand why it was you
I can't understand why it was you.
You make a feller turn old yeller
I just can't understand how it was you.

She was my baby
Loved her so much
Filled me up with roomy thoughts
And left me in the dust

But I'd tell her if I saw her that it was meant to be
She'd ask me how I know these things and why doesn't she?
I'd tell her darlin' listen and I'll tell you the whole truth:
I can't understand but it was you.

I can't understand why it was you.
I can't understand why it was you.
I lost my other half and didn't know till it was through
I can't understand but it was you.

Envy

I wander off into the night
Myself is all I blame
That living seems a dullish sight
And death seems all the same.

I can not close my eyes and yet
When I do I see my living
Becoming something different
And the subconscious is unforgiving.

If only I could feel my heart
Begin to beat again
Then I would make its rejuvenator
My lover and my friend.

Until then I will rest tonight
And bid you all adieu
For I can only feel your happiness
And hate each and every one of you.

Fucking Crazy

All the hunters are the same
I know their vicious nightmare game-
true sex I sought no more I asked
and drank the poison: again at last.

She wants the villain to take her again
but she has joy and life and pain.
her actions weren't what she said
dear god I want the pain instead.

anything but this empty chest
I pine for meaning and often get less-
even in a loveless fuck I have to be compelled
I'd rather be a praying harpy than live this tasteless hell.

these walls they seem so tight right now
they bear the witness of my sin
and I the great performer bow
I've been judged and karma wins.

such drama in such simple sex
her actions weren't what she said
such things as fucking should not vex
I think I'll take my loneliness instead.

Dear Darkness

Be still you wrestless demon night
and bend towards my simple plight-
just let me sleep with sweet dreams tonight-
be still my mind from Wrong or right.

May my dreams be tender and i wake to the sun-
Keep worry from me let me never run-
unless it makes me happy to;
give me my hay day and perfect youth.
And i in turn will speak the truth
and help you with others who don't know the kissing booth.

Vivid Lament

I the writer am determined to die young
cascaded by darkness i've never seen the sun
and in my own world my thoughts resound
to see these visions of a world with no sound.

I grieve for you and picture your plight-
in darkness and sleep and wander this night.
Though i awaken something always feels wrong-
death is but an instance in this my long song-
I pray they remember me fondly after i'm gone.