Thus far

I've woken from my sleep
hungover from romance
and wound up six feet deep
looking at all you ants.

I can't help being human
so why should I even try
half of me is bleeding
and now this half has to die.

I want to wake up from this dream
this dream of reality
and walk on the killing grounds
blow up my society.

I want to wake up from this dream
shrouded in the chaos that is life.

Dreading the coming night
because I'm mortal amongst the light
but night brings on the madness
that I satiate with unholy sights.

Drinking, raging, crashing, superhuman
strength and violent bashing
of all the things I wanted to be
but normality is just not me.

Slipping into darkness
a gear in the machine
I can't be this person who they want
all I can be is hardly seen.

Where is the greater justice when
you live in a violent society
I can't wake up from madness
this dream brings out my piety

I waste alone in emotion
and I don't want that to be my life
I just want to wake up every day
in a normal house with a normal wife.

I want the 401K and I want
everything that I could be
but somehow I conceive this madness
and blink reality to nothingness.

Where am I? Who are you?
What alone can bring me truth?
Is this the way, the chosen path?
or just the raging of an unsightly youth?

Am I unstable? think you know me
stay around and fucking show me
how you're better, who you are
I'll run you over with my Kar- ma!

Wasted thinking about myself
dreaming on this shattered plain
and bleeding in my mind because
it has no essense it has no name.

What is all this darkness and
where did it all come from
am I just droning on or am I
living life just because!

Death to the immortals
and yet I want to become one
if all I see is madness
then I say fuck it all
look what we've become.

look what we've become
am I alone in this?
look what we've become
people hide pain in thier bliss
look what we've become
the devil's waiting in you happyness
look what we've become
where are you going now?
Why don't you join in the abyss.