Wrath of God

Shadows arising from memory and soul
inhibitions are slowing as memories go
toxins and violence are breaking my brain
everything's pointless, 'cause everythings the same

Travesties mounting in total in my brain
thoughts of destruction agaiiiiin!

I don't wanna be the hero

I don't wanna share the burden of fighting
for you
I don't wanna see the distance
and know that you'll never be there
and if you could, you'd see I don't care.

I can never feel your feelings
I can only read the pain in your eyes
I will only feel the passion at night
and in any case I walk towards the light

light my cigarette and memories all fade
through destruction I'll never feel the paaain!

I don't wanna be the hero

I don't wanna share the burden of fighting
for you
I don't wanna see the distance
and know that you'll never be there
and if you could, you'd see I don't care.

I will never be the night on the white horse
I will never try to forget our choice
there is always some destruction in life
fight for what is wrong and you'd make it right

I am crushing the terrorists now
in my head is where they all abound and

I don't wanna be the hero

I don't wanna share the burden of fighting
for you
I don't wanna see the distance
and know that you'll never be there
and if you could, you'd see I don't care.

I'm forgetting all our passions
waiting for some all powerful god
I will never be your bastion
and I think that you won't wait for me.

I am growing in immortal indifference
and I'll forever be waiting for youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu...

I don't wanna be the hero

I don't wanna share the burden of fighting
for you
I don't wanna see the distance
and know that you'll never be there
and if you could, you'd see I don't care.

In the twighlight of our special days
I have seen you change so many ways
growing older I've seen I don't care
what's a hero when he never is there?

I can't reach this height again
so for instance we'll always be friends

I don't wanna be the hero

I don't wanna share the burden of fighting
for you
I don't wanna see the distance
and know that you'll never be there
and if you could, you'd see I don't care.

And in the end it was always all done
I always knew that you were never the one...

Thus far

I've woken from my sleep
hungover from romance
and wound up six feet deep
looking at all you ants.

I can't help being human
so why should I even try
half of me is bleeding
and now this half has to die.

I want to wake up from this dream
this dream of reality
and walk on the killing grounds
blow up my society.

I want to wake up from this dream
shrouded in the chaos that is life.

Dreading the coming night
because I'm mortal amongst the light
but night brings on the madness
that I satiate with unholy sights.

Drinking, raging, crashing, superhuman
strength and violent bashing
of all the things I wanted to be
but normality is just not me.

Slipping into darkness
a gear in the machine
I can't be this person who they want
all I can be is hardly seen.

Where is the greater justice when
you live in a violent society
I can't wake up from madness
this dream brings out my piety

I waste alone in emotion
and I don't want that to be my life
I just want to wake up every day
in a normal house with a normal wife.

I want the 401K and I want
everything that I could be
but somehow I conceive this madness
and blink reality to nothingness.

Where am I? Who are you?
What alone can bring me truth?
Is this the way, the chosen path?
or just the raging of an unsightly youth?

Am I unstable? think you know me
stay around and fucking show me
how you're better, who you are
I'll run you over with my Kar- ma!

Wasted thinking about myself
dreaming on this shattered plain
and bleeding in my mind because
it has no essense it has no name.

What is all this darkness and
where did it all come from
am I just droning on or am I
living life just because!

Death to the immortals
and yet I want to become one
if all I see is madness
then I say fuck it all
look what we've become.

look what we've become
am I alone in this?
look what we've become
people hide pain in thier bliss
look what we've become
the devil's waiting in you happyness
look what we've become
where are you going now?
Why don't you join in the abyss.

Cat Smokes

The dragon man chilled outside
choking and coughing his yellow mist:
the cat looked on.

Wiskers twitchless,
his all-too-familliar quizical expression
beamed alone.

firey eyes and makeshift lies
could not block the cat's
still wanting to take a try.

Locked in Hatred, Love Immortal

Never could I have loved
as deeply as before
the night you left me standing
outside of my own door.

Out of my own mind
reeling critically through time
in the few seconds in forever
that it seemed to take you to leave.

my love for you so strong
I had to do something to demand
my heart not being broken
and so I destroyed my own hand.

Delicately fearful
was how it played in my mind
but the body took action,
its controls harder to find.

Desperation is a motive
stronger than the rest
when we fear that we could lose
the best.

We act out in our rage
you never knew yourself
both of us with desperate irritation
wishing we were not here
wishing we were somewhere else.

Lost within a dreamworld
lost and lost alone,
perhaps will reunite one day
if only through a telephone.

but you are not a mortal dear,
truly I can see!
I'll meet you one day, sometime else
throughout our immortality.

Unloading

Do you see it?
Can you hear it?
When it comes it takes the night.

When I feel it
and I know it
I sleep well beneath its light.

It is there with me regardless
and I need to cut it out
for memories are with it
but feelings, I'm without.

like the dreams forgotten all at once
the moment I wake up
I think of her and her and her
a certain, "I can not say what."

I walk a line sometimes at night
between waking and sleeping tight
I feel the darkness and the space
oh god, goodnight...
goodnight

Overburdened

Lost in the cascading thoughts of forever,
I dream of the ephemeral joys I've had.
Deep in happiness I could stay but
not when the moments passing are sad.

Yet I've become lost in this web for fools,
comfortable in delirium until reality gives me rules.
Another night is passing away,
life continues like a willow sways:

ever so slightly and in every which way-
There's not enough time in a day.

Meeting Fate

I feel a darkness in my soul again,
hello old friend.
It's been some time since we last spoke;
I never thought I'd see you-
but I always hoped.
Look at the wasteland we love so much-
nothing matters
so nothing sucks.
I wouldn't care if I suddenly died,
my darkness is my peace-
to say I fear anymore
I'd lie.
I simply await, with you, the end-
my world is the darkness,
goodnight my friend.