last request

Put me flowers on my grave.

Buy cheep, I won't know-

You might as well save.

Dear Jack

Dear Jack I hate you

I hate you and everything you stand for:

For racism, for self-righteousnes, for toxic masculinity-

For grudges and times when we didn't see entirely differently.

I wish I could take the compliment out of my sons name

I wish I could wipe you from existence

As well as ever meeting you from my brain

But most of all-

I wish that you did not represent such a large portion of people-

Who see like you and spread hate

Like so much senseless evil 

And then claim God will save them after they're asses under a steeple.

stream of consciousness on a dark country road at night

In the darkness they come

LED one by one like fairy tail evil marched from its cell

As they pass by they make you feel as if you'd fly

And wink and wish you well.

We lock them in our closet behind our dreaded memories

Are shams and fears but close of day

When we all have had but a wink to little

An emotion too many

They March in and way leads on to way.

The dreaded realities they make

Our greatest nightmares The Shadow

And when we hold the mirror up

We recognize I know them so well

If I ruled the world

If I ruled the world, I'd have to see with the honesty of a child's eyes
See my subjects as children and yet
I'd have the burdens of an adult.

Who'd want to rule the world?
To do so would mean bias wiped away
Thoughts and feelings suppressed
And decisions based on pure truth.

What is pure truth?
As if to make a decision we'd have to decide what's best for the entire globe
Where would the enemy be-
To unite the masses and give the unnecessary a place to rest their angry internet fingers?

When I rule the world, I will tell my brothers that freedom is achievable
When we see each other as brothers
And DESPITE the hatred love the other.

How does a dreamer see a day?
It's like ruling the whole world and making it in your own way.
Why can't we just say:
We all rule the world?
What are you going to do
With YOUR world today?

Breaking point

You didn't believe the dark in me-
I told you all I had;
You didn't think that I could break-
Until you saw I had.

You rejected me when it became uncomfortable;
Well fuck you anyway-
You didn't think that I would rebel
Until today.

Too much love to give

I want to spread love to my friends,
I want to give it to my enemies
I simply have too much love
So much that sometimes it is damning me.

I think to myself sometimes
Is my love genuine?
If it's so much that it blinds me?
Does that mean it binds me?

My heart is heavy my soul is bold
If I am to be satisfied why am I still cold?
Deep in my dreams, there is only one thing
I'm begging good to bring it to me.

SA

I drifted into frenzy:
wild eyes and crazed pulse
The desperate hunt accelerated
I crashed through each fear.

A million roads diverged in a wwwood
And each about the same
But my brain convinced me only one
Could be my best endgame.

Until I found the right trigger
Tugged it hard and rounded home
After the shot it's always quiet-
And I never understand these roads.